Tuesday, July 6, 2010

post secret.


I think that POST SECRET is beautiful.

I'm pretty sure that I have always known about it, but I have only just now gone through slideshows of different ones and read through them.

Something about me that drives Evan crazy:
I love when [media] makes me cry.
movies, music, books, etc.
(no, post secret did not make me cry...yet)
I think that it must be our different childhoods.
Evan only likes comedies, and kids movies. (for real.)
He rarely reads, but if he does its more like a mystery type of thing,
vs. me, who loves dramas, and I love reading about "depressing" things, like suicide, eating disorders, cutting, abuse.
Evan didnt experience any of these things;
I did.
so I think it must be a comfort thing or something...
being able to feel the hurt of those things, but through other people's words and experiences, so I dont necessarily have to confront my own.
(I have had therapy...I am healthy. dont be alarmed)
is this making sense?
anyway, the purpose of that is to explain why I love this Post Secret.
I am also a big art fan,
and seeing how these people combine images with their secrets is just beautiful to me. The whole thing represents their secret, their feelings. Its beautiful and heartbreaking.
I really just enjoy FEELING. strong emotions, whether they're "sad" or "happy".
I like experiencing emotion. Again, I think its just linked to my childhood.
I spent a lot of it ignoring my emotions, concealing them.
So its a great feeling to me to feel strongly about something. In fact, thats how I judge books and movies. at different times in my life, I have enjoyed viewing:
Cinderella Man
7 pounds
Where the Wild Things Are
Life is Beautiful
American History X
Lost and Delirious
V for Vendetta

I found all of these movies heartbreaking, and I loved it. I cried in each one.
I think it is great that so many people have found a way to be heard and feel loved.
I think I might make my own postcard someday.

4 comments:

  1. My husband doesn't understand my need to cry either. I dealt with an eating disorder, severe depression, and anxiety to the point of waking nightmares. I went through therapy, was put on antidepressants that didn't work, etc. and then got very, very sick and was diagnosed with hypothyroidism. When my levels were finally stable, the main depression/anxiety was gone. I was just left with the mental aftermath: a weird relationship with food and my weight, and no confidence in my own ability to deal with things.

    Things have gotten a lot better, but Matt doesn't get that sometimes, I just have to cry to get it all out, and usually that needs a trigger. It's easier to cry for someone else's heartbreak than to cry for my own. Matt asks "Why to do you watch that if it makes you cry?" I don't know how to explain it to him.

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  2. Tiffany! I didn't no you had a blog! its so fun!! I love reading all your entries!! We all need to get together soon!!

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  3. oh i know exactly what you mean.
    i hate fluff books.
    suicide books are actually my favorite
    you should read 13 reasons why by Jay Asher
    it's my all time favorite book and you won't want to put it down.
    simply amazing

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  4. Hi Tiffany, this is Mallory Hanna, I used to be in your ward, we talked a few times. I just found your blog.... and I love it. Hope you remember me otherwise this would be weird. We are very similar I think, and I wish we could have become better friends. Anyway, I loved this post and felt like it describes me perfectly. Hope you don't mind me stalking your blog!

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