Tuesday, November 30, 2010

day 29/30
What have I learned in the past 30 days?

sometimes, you get trials that you have absolutely no control over.
the only option is to keep praying, keep believing, never lose that faith.

Who am I?

I am a daughter of God.
I am a wife.
I am an artist.
I am an intellect.
I am a sister.
I am an Asst. Manager.
I am a fast driver.
I am a future mother.
I am a Saint.
I am a reader.
I am a runner.
I am a sushi lover.
I am a water drinker.
I am faithful.
I am compassionate.
I am a survivor.
and I have come to know that I am loved.

Who are you?
the 30 day questionnaire here.

Sunday, November 28, 2010

day 27/28

Why am I doing this 30 day challenge?
I had definitely hit a blogging rut, as I had written.
Then, my cousin posted that she was going to do this, and listed the questions that you're supposed to answer!
AND it was at the very end of October, so it was perfect for me to just start on the first of November, AND November happens to have 30 days, so there was a post for every day of the month!

A picture of me last year, and now, and how have I changed?
September 2009
(Me, Evan, and Denver)

Me and Evan today

1. My hair is now blonde
2. my hair is at least 7 inches shorter
3. I have swapped out pink scrubs for a pencil skirt! (haha)
4. 20ish lbs lighter
5. much happier with my job at Tbell vs. the one I had last year at the AC
6. I have a tanning pass (4 days until the cruise!!)
7. I am much closer to my mom now than I was last year
Those are the main differences I can think of!
and, to further your viewing pleasure:

(Since Evan and I can never take pictures without taking a retarded-face one)

Friday, November 26, 2010

day 25/26
What you would find in my bag:

"smoke" tanning lotion
"look ma, new hands!" hand lotion
Burt's Bees beeswax lip balm
hand sanitizer
my wickedly awesome wallet
These are the things that are ALWAYS in my bag. My phone is sometimes in it, other times in my pocket. and the rest is random receipts and papers that accumulate.

What do I think of my friends:
Uhm, I love them?
I even lose sleep over some... :(
I definitely pray for them.
Its so hard to watch friends suffer when I feel like I have the answers, but not the type of the answers I can just hand over. Only the kind of answers that they have to find out for themselves. Its so hard! I am just so thankful that I have found answers for myself, and I continue to pray that I can help others find them as well.

Wednesday, November 24, 2010

day 24-
a letter to my parents...

"sorry" I won't be seeing any of you for thanksgiving.

ahh! Tomorrow is Thanksgiving!
So how my job works is; I work 50 hours a week. 5 days, each 10 hour shifts.
But, I get paid Holidays! Which means, I am only working 40 hours this week, because even though we are closed on Thanksgiving, it gets counted that I worked 10 hours that day.
Pretty sweet, yeah?!

I found some healthy recipes for Green Bean Casserole, and a pumpkin pie.
I'll let you know if they turn out...I'm hoping!
I really hope that when we have kids and I am in charge of our own dinner, I can manage to make Thanksgiving not such a huge change from our normal way of eating.
(I even MORE nervous about Halloween ahhhh)

I'm so glad we went to Utah for that faux-giving when we did. We never would have made it to Utah this week if we'd wanted to! I reeallly hope any of you traveling do so SAFELY!

Tuesday, November 23, 2010

day 23:
something I crave a lot.

remember those cookies I mentioned?
they are ohhh so delicious.
and I am having a hard time restraining myself from eating them all!

the highways were closed today because of the beautiful weather we're having...
both the gym AND the library closed because of "severe weather". how in the heck does snow effect either of those businesses?!
Another person I went to high school with died...
2 in the past year. Way sad.
anyway, I don't know if its the dreary snow or what but I'm not feeling the best today.

Monday, November 22, 2010

day twenty and two.
what makes me different from everyone else:
I can write upside, backwards, and upside/backwards combined.
I am afraid of elbows.

those are the only two things I can think of that doesn't apply to anyone I've ever met!

Blizzard warning tonight, and we already had a crazy snow storm last night!
the news says: 20 degrees, feels like 10, and the wind is worse in Rexburg than any other part of East Idaho. what a surprise!
Winter is definitely official. but boy it just makes me that much more excited to be in the Caribbean! ahhh! after a WHOLE YEAR of waiting, I just cannot believe that its really here.

a new lovely creation of evan's:
a bowl full of baby spinach
torn up pieces of deli turkey breast
a little bit of Parmesan cheese
oil & vinegar

I also made these cookies. I am a huge fan, but I discovered from my beautifully honest friend (love you Kristina :)) that not everyone loves them as much as me!
I hope those of you in Rexburg don't die on the ice, and that those of you not in Rexburg are freaking thankful!

Sunday, November 21, 2010

a picture of something that makes me happy:
so this isn't the exact brand I use, but have you ever tried the tortillas that you buy uncooked? they are SOOOO amazing! you cook them for the first time, and if your pan has been warmed up they cook in 40 seconds, tops. no hydrogenated oils or trans fat, and SO much more flavor.
these definitely make me happy!
I love peanut butter banana roll ups:
2-3 T peanut butter,
1 ripe banana cut into slices,
both spread in the middle of one of the aforementioned tortillas,
roll it up and voila!

Saturday, November 20, 2010

day twenty
someone I would like to marry/spend my life with someday.

Well, as I'm sure every single one of you know, I am married to Evan, and I am very much planning on spending my life (and eternity) with him.

But this question does also make me think of children, whom I will someday be spending my life with, and this brings me to another topic:
Since I am saying a lot about myself during these 30 days, I feel like I should have a little disclaimer (which I mean with all sincerity, absolutely no feelings of resentment/anger/being offended etc.) There are 2 major things going on (or not going on) in my life that, if looked at generally, don't exactly match up with what it seems like I should be doing, that I might be taking easy way outs or something. Its been hard for me to put faith in the Lord that, although its different from what my understanding of what the Brethren have said, this is what I should be doing in my life at this time. But I trust Him that He has a better idea of what should be going on...even if the things I hope for may not get to come to pass as this point in time. This is not directed toward anyone specifically, I just thought I would mention that since I am opening up so much on here :)

ps. TWO weeks from today, where will I be?
(well technically I guess I'll be on a ship that is headed toward the Cayman Islands. still, 2 weeks?! I can't believe the entire year has gone by already!!)

Friday, November 19, 2010

day nine and teen.
nicknames I have, and why.

I'll get the worst one over with (even though the spelling has never really been decided on)
If only I knew the reason...
and this is limited to family members ONLY...and even then is pushing it!


was one I had in high school, because my car's "name" was Edna, and it was spray painted onto the trunk. (It also had a big peace sign covering the hood) So obviously you couldn't really miss a car like that, so people knew me by my car even when they didn't really know my name.

Now I think this one is a little more difficult to explain. It made a lot of sense if you knew me in high school...
First of all, I always have and still cannot wait to be a grandma. It sounds so fun to me to be retired, get to spend as much time as I want with my husband, yet still have babies and children coming and going to play with, love, and spoil. I guess the "getting old" part is what makes no one else in the world as excited for this time of life as I am, but I'm okay with being an old lady someday. (Honestly, its that in between un-cool mid 30 mom stage that I'm a little afraid of. because no matter how cool you actually are, your kids will probably NEVER think so until they get old enough to appreciate you)
I also had a habit of calling everybody "darling", and I really liked old lady shoes and sweaters, and even wore those big gawdy pins on my sweaters sometimes.
The nickname just fit.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

day eighteen.
plans/dreams/goals that I have

I would LOVE to return to school someday. I happen to be one of those seemingly few who really enjoys school. I love learning! I am glad, however, that I didn't go longer than my 2 semesters and waste time and money on a major that I wouldn't have stayed interested in. I originally was planning on being a High School English Teacher (I never would have lasted through all of those essays...)
NOW, though, I know enough about myself and interests to be certain of what I would like to go to school for: any guesses? (not really that hard...)
drum roll:

a nutritionist/dietitian.
(I know, duh, right?)

But that is what I would love to go to school for.

I would also like to have a nice little studio above the garage of my home that I can paint in.

Wednesday, November 17, 2010

day 17-
someone I would want to switch lives with, and why.

Hmmm....honestly, the first person that came to my mind is a girl that I went
to Jr High and High School with...She's a great dancer, has a wonderful body yet can eat anything she wants. I would only want to switch for a day, just to be able to eat whatever I wanted and stay looking amazing! You know that saying "ignorance is bliss"? Sometimes I just want to eat crappy food and not realize how bad it is for me, because it sounds so delicious. *sigh* but I do know how bad it is, so I don't.

But I would never want to switch lives forever with anybody.
I really like my life, and who I am and where I am.
I like being me! :)

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

day 16
another picture of myselfJuly 2008November 2010

Monday, November 15, 2010

day 15;
put my iPod on shuffle, and name the first 10 songs to play:

1. 60 Segundos- CPM 22
2. Tempus Vernum- Enya
3. EFY Medley-As Sister's in Zion/We'll Bring the World His Truth
4. Untitled- Blink 182
5. How to Fight Loneliness- Wilco
6. Young Folks- Peter Bjorn and John
7. Milk- CocoRosie
8. No, Not Now- Hot Hot Heat
9. sharks- Testiciles
10. Chicago- Sufjan Stevens

Sunday, November 14, 2010

day 14, a picture of me and my family:

As I told you, this past weekend Evan and I went to Utah for a "faux"-giving.
It worked out easier for most of us, especially my mom since A) she gets paid time and a half for working Thanksgiving Day, and B) She works on Black Friday.
These are the pictures that include me with my family.

Me and my niece Sofia taking a nap

A picture Evan scored of Sue (my sister in law) looking crazy haha

Me and my oldest nieces, Kelsie and Alicia

Two of my sisters, Mandy and Karly

Saturday, November 13, 2010

day 13-
"a letter to someone who has hurt me recently"

uhmm....no thanks. is that really blog appropriate? I don't know maybe I'm weirdly private or something! But I did write letters-that-were-never-sent to my parents (Dad and step-mom) while I was doing counseling and it really was helpful! So, if any of you have anger or hurt toward someone that you KNOW you will never be able to discuss things with, I would highly recommend writing a letter explaining everything, even if you never send it.

So Evan and I are in Utah right now. The drive last night was sooooo much better than I think it ever has been! NO CONSTRUCTION! Last time we came, oh my gosh...it was at least 75% construction. Which means pretty much all of the drive in the Utah part, had road work going on. (amazingly, now that its over, the roads look EXACTLY THE SAME...)

My little niece is now a little over 3 months and is sooooo happy and smiley! I will definitely be posting some pictures soon. She is so adorable!
(sorry this post is pretty pointless...but I'm committed to finishing this 30 day thing!)

Friday, November 12, 2010

day 12;
how I found out about blogs, & why i started one.

Well, technically my first blog was a Xanga account back in my sophomore year of high school (even before MySpace, wow!) I actually don't think I ever officially got rid of it? and I found out about that via my "first love"...lol it wasn't even a relationship filled with lust or anything, but I was quite sure I was head over heels!
THEN, I had another blogger blog during my 2 semesters of college, but deleted that one to create THIS one after I got married. and I think I started it to have a semi-diary, to try and track our lives, plus other people can read it too! and I actually do enjoy writing. (I don't think I'd ever be capable of writing a publishable version of my own memoir though...goooo sister in law!)

We are going to Utah for a faux-thanksgiving with my family, because having it together on real thanksgiving isn't the most convenient for most of us. I am hoping to continue blogging, since I am doing a daily questionnaire thing, but if I dont, I'll probably post them all on Tuesday but date them for the corresponding dates...or else it will bug me!

Also, I heard some of this talk while I was driving to work the other day and it has helped improve my last few days :)
Happy Friday everyone!

Thursday, November 11, 2010

Day 11,
ANOTHER picture of me and my friends
So, I know that this is technically my mom,
but since our relationship is QUITE different than the normal mother-daughter thing,
I am going to say it counts as a picture of me and a friend.

I don't think many of you know the history, (I also doubt many of you care all that much)
but to keep it short, I hardly had any type of relationship with my mom between the ages of
11 and 18. And it took until well into my 19th year before I'd say we had an actual "relationship."
But, now we do, and though there were many rough years, she is an amazing, loving woman,
and I would not trade out those difficult years for anything since it means having the
relationship that we have now.
Every time I spend time with her, I learn more and more about this person that I never quite knew. I never knew how like her I am!
She is living proof to me that Christ's atonement is real, and that no matter what you have gone through, if you just turn your life over to God, you will find happiness and peace.
I love this woman very, very much! As a mother AND a friend :)

Wednesday, November 10, 2010

day 10.
(is it sad that by doing this blog each morning, I am able to remember
what the date is while at work?)

today's question is:
what music do I listen to while

MAD/SAD: I think these two should go together, because I honestly don't usually get ANGRY, I would call it more "upset", which leads to crying. But I do indeed get sad. and the music I listen to is:
Landslide- Fleetwood Mac
Breathe- Sia (thanks Hannah :] )
Mad World- Gary Jules
You Had Time- Ani Difranco
The Shins
The Smiths
I have a [bad] habit of enabling my sadness, which takes me to sometimes unhealthy places. So this is the music I like to listen to, which isn't always the healthiest, because it doesn't exactly counteract my sadness. So, if I decide to do what I know is better even though I don't exactly want to, I listen to MoTab. It always lifts me up.

Bored: I just give up and listen to the radio. I can't remember the station that I like, I just know its my number 2 programmed station...it plays a lot of 60's and 70's though.

Le Tigre
The Only Girl in the World- Rihanna
DJ Got Us Fallin in Love- Usher
Bad Romance- Lady Gaga
Mostly stuff you can dance to...I like to get all crazy haha

Happy: When I am happy, I like to sing out loud. So that has a huge range...I really like singing "Somewhere Only We Know" by Keane, all of the Phantom of the Opera soundtrack, Christina Aguilera, Celine Dion (hellooooo) that kind of stuff. Where I can turn up the music really loud and sing at the top of my lungs and pretend I sound as good as those artists :)

Tuesday, November 9, 2010

day 9.
something I'm proud of doing in the last few days:

sorry for the repetitiveness :(
but this is really what I am proud of! Going to the gym every single day, and actually ENJOYING it.
So, I know that there are a lot of people that dislike working out. But can I just tell you, I
working out. Beyond loathing. When I got married, I had never ran a mile in my life.
In school when we had to for gym class, I walked, and would almost cry because I was so upset.
(not even lying, or exaggerating.)
It took over a year and a half for me to even go willingly, and longer than that for me to be actually have a DESIRE to go. But I am finally here, and I feel SO MUCH BETTER. I love having a healthy way to make me feel better physically/emotionally/spiritually.
and, of course, looking better sure is a great bonus :)
I do miss my work out buddies though...
I don't think Ms. C. Briggs reads this, but I miss her.
She was the best work out buddy I have had thus far!
I did catch via blogs and fbook though that the other Ms. Briggs and Ms. Marcum were doing a little p90x together :) I don't know if you guys are still doing it, or how long it lasted, but it did warm my heart reading about it. (p90x is sooooooooo hard!)

btw, this happened yeserday. it snowed ALLLLLLLL day long. Evan and I made a cute little snowman though. We named him wall E. He is so cute!

Monday, November 8, 2010

day eight.

Short term goals for this month and why.

What a perfect month to be asked this question! I think usually I would have made up goals because I felt obligated to because I am being asked.
However! I definitely have a goal for this next month!

Now I am a bit of a "health nut", and I do looove exercising, but because of my busy schedule (working 50 hrs a week) I seem to only exercise 2-3 times a week.
But, with that cruise coming up so soon, I am determined to work out 6 days a week and be EXTRA careful about what I eat because, honestly, I want to look AWESOME.
(am I vain for wanting that? wouldn't everybody like that?...)

Truth is, the heaviest I ever was was 167.
The other day I weighed myself at Evan's gym, and with my running shoes, I was 142.5.
I feel pretty great! it has been a course of a little over a year. and now that I'm going on a trip where I'll be practically living in a swimsuit, I'm excited to feel comfortable enough with myself to have pictures taken of our trip without having to cover up every second or checking EVERY SINGLE PICTURE to make sure I look okay.
I hope I don't sound vain, or braggy about this. I honestly just feel excited to have made it so far, because I feel like I work hard! and since it is my goal for the month, I thought I would share it.


Sunday, November 7, 2010

Day Seven.
a picture of someone/something that has had the biggest impact on me.

There are quite a few that come to mind.
My parents-not necessarily for any good reasons, but because of the trials they were kind enough to bestow me with, I became the person I am today, which is something I am not ashamed of.
My husband-obviously...Evan and I have often talked about where I would be if we hadn't gotten married whe
n we had...*shudders* it wouldn't be pretty.

However, I'm sorry if it seems cliche for our little Mormon world, but the number one person absolutely would be

This is my favorite picture of Him. And I know that He has had an incredible impact on all of us (assuming that I am aware of who actually reads this)or else we probably wouldn't have ever met, and definitely wouldn't be where we are today.
But, I will let you know the reasons why He is the number 1 impact on my life.

A few people have heard me say this before, and it may have seemed kind of like an exaggeration, but I am being 100% honest in saying that I would not be here, on this earth, living this life, if it weren't for my knowledge and testimony of Christ and his church,
and of my purpose while here in this life.
I would have given up long ago. I know I am only 21, but it would have happened by now, trust me.
I know that I have the love of my husband, and of most of my family, and quite a few friends who genuinely care about me, but there have been many, many times that that wasn't enough to give me the strength to carry on. It may seem weak and selfish, but its the truth. There has been more than one occasion where the one and only thing that kept me going was prayer, and the strength I received from it. I know that Christ lives, and that He is my Savior.
He has given me purpose in this life when I could not find it anywhere else. I know that I am here for a reason, and that through faith and obedience I can hopefully help others learn of the happiness that I have been blessed to know through my knowledge of Christ.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

day 6

my favorite superhero:

now, I know that this question is most likely applying to the
version of superhero's...but I am going to broaden to the all good guy category.
Which makes my favorite:

Mr. Harry James Potter himself.
I don't care how dorky or childish it sounds,
I LOVE the Harry Potter books.
(notice the book part. don't even talk to me about the movies.)

I think those books are absolutely wonderful and they are definitely some of my favorites. and though Harry isn't necessarily my favorite character, he makes an absolutely fabulous good guy! He is truly just a GOOD guy. If only he had the gospel...he'd be such a wonderful addition to the brethren. hahahahaha. jk. but not really...

Friday, November 5, 2010

day 5
somewhere I've been today:
today was my day off.
Evan and I got up at 5 am to get ready to register his classes at 6 am.
Everything was all done by 6:30 and we went back to bed.
When we finally got up around 10ish we made a nice pancake and hashbrown breakfast, went to the gym (4 more weeks...we're kicking it into overdrive!) and then we went to Kmart.
We both thought, "why have we never shopped here before?" its the convenience of Walmart without the ego. I must say, I was impressed.

Thursday, November 4, 2010

day four:
a habit that I wish I didn't have

I was trying to decide what in the world this would be.
Honestly, I don't know if I'm a "habit" type of person. (are there "habit" type of people ?)
I am, however, a person of routine. I have especially discovered this in the last few months.
[story time]
2 things you'll need to know for this story:
a) We usually do our main grocery shopping at Winco in Idaho Falls. When I was single I went to Albertsons, so I'm pretty comfortable there too.
b) We always go grocery shopping together, but I don't mind going by myself because I find it somehow relaxing.

So a few months ago I was going to the Walmart Super Center in I.F. because I wanted to see if I could get an appointment with the optometrist, and I decided to just do the grocery shopping while I was there. Evan didn't really feel like coming, but I was okay with that (refer back to point B) However, as I soon found out, if A and B are not put together, C does not equal a very awesome experience.
It took me 10 minutes to find the vision center (which is at the very front of the store)
Then, as I did my grocery shopping, I would look at my list, walk a few aisles and then completely forget what in the world I was looking for. I had to decide on one item and recite it in my mind until I found it. It took me an hour to do the shopping that normally would have taken me 10-15 minutes. As I checked out I bought a bottle of hand sanitizer because I felt disgusting. I couldnt find my car because I had completely forgotten which side of the parking lot I had parked in. When I finally made it (after at least 5 minutes) I put my groceries in, sat down and sanitized my hands, stick shift, and steering wheel, and starting BAWLING. I cried most of the way home.

moral of the story: I may not have "habits" per say, but I do kind of wish I could do things out of my routine without having insane panic attacks.

Wednesday, November 3, 2010

day 3

a picture of me and my friends :)
(for more awesome pictures of some more friends, and the first official "taco party",
go here

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

day 2.

the meaning behind my blog name:
The Initial 10,
because my initials are TEN.

and I thought it sounded cool how initial could be used in different ways...
as in the initial, the start of something.
I thought I was pretty clever lol

Monday, November 1, 2010

day one.

1. I started kindergarten a year early
2. I am a major health nut, yet I happen to be Assistant Manager at a Taco Bell. Talk about irony.
3. I have never broken a bone, or had stitches *knock on wood*
4. I LOVE to read.
5. My favorite bands are Interpol, The Shins, and Rilo Kiley.
6. I was 19 years and 2 months old when I got married.
7. Evan and I were both born in the same year in California, then both moved around age 3 to the areas that we would spend the rest of our childhood. (him, Oregon. Me, Utah.)
8. I can write upside and backwards.
9. My favorite color is gray. Even though its not really a color.
10. I love to paint. Oils are my favorite.
11. My favorite food is Sushi.
12. I am afraid of elbows touching me.
13. My least favorite thing about my job is that I cant paint my nails.
14. I have bi-polar disorder.
15. My initials are TEN