Monday, March 7, 2011

I am feeling a little bit like Harold lately; I try to imagine the future and its like a giant blank page of endless possibilities stretched out before me, none of which I can even begin to wrap my head around as actually being attainable.

Evan still has a year (at least) left of school, so its not even that close to when we have to leave, but we've been talking a lot about:
our budget so we can build up savings and start investing,
Evan's career choices,
if we should stay here after he's done to save extra money/when we should head towards Oregon (are we even going to be able to go to Oregon?),

when will our first child come into play? before we leave, during, after?


I have still only ever lived in Utah, and Rexburg. and while it was a much easier adaption into independence after getting married than even I had anticipated, it somehow seems like we'll have to do it all over again when we leave here. I feel like anything and everything that can be considered the "next step" is going to have to happen at once.
I mean, we have been living in a 543 sq. ft. studio apartment for over 2 years, and will continue doing so for at least one more. So, even having a bedroom seems like such a far off thought, much less that combined with leaving Idaho, looking for a house, getting pregnant, Evan finding a suitable job, even buying couches and a dresser set (of which we have neither.)
I know that everyone does this eventually, but somehow it feels like our situation is so much more drastic ...(as I'm sure just about everyone feels...or is it really just me?)

3 comments:

  1. Save as much as you can because once you DO decide to move and have babies, there are SOOO many unexpected things that can pop up, and they usually do. We didn't build up our savings as we should have (we barely had any $$ coming in at school) and now that we are in law school, our money is even tighter and I wish we had a bit more room to breathe at times. Enjoy the time you have with Evan because when kids come...you won't have any time alone! They never go away!!!!!!

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  2. Hahaha. Meagan's comment is so funny (and true).

    I have to say, in my life--things have come at us so quickly and so unexpectedly. I had NEVER lived in Utah, and we Chris applied for a job, got it, we had 11 hours to find a place to live and we moved the next week. It seemed like a blink of an eye. I didn't know how to be a mom or even buy a car. And when Greta came, intuition kicked in. And when we bought our first car, I thought, "wow, that was WAY easier than I thought." And now that we're buying our first house (a little harder), I am feeling all too grown up. It's so amazing how life just happens. Sometimes I feel like I am constantly running to catch up to everything going on around me.

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  3. as vague and lame as this may sound, it'll all play out and you'll just KNOW when stuff is right. it's amazing how you'll be blessed if you just follow what you feel is like what you should do. but for reals, it is all so daunting. even though house buying is YEARS down the road for us, i can't even imagine doing it. like actually owning something like that. mind-boggling.

    ps- miss you guys :)

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